"You know how some people love the thrill of being surprised? They love surprise parties. Surprises feel thrilling to them. Like the thrill some people get when a roller coaster ride you thought was over suddenly takes off again and starts doing upside down loops. They throw their hands in the air and embrace the thrill of the unknown.
They call that fun.
I don’t.
I love a good birthday party. But I don’t want it to be a surprise.
Life twists and turns and throws loops into those places we think will be flat and smooth. Because that’s what life does. Sometimes it all just catches us off guard.
And at the end of the day, I guess that’s why I don’t like to be surprised. I can’t stand to get caught off guard. It makes me feel exposed and afraid. But slowly, I’m learning it’s not all bad to be a little exposed and afraid. That vulnerable place reminds us we have needs beyond what we manage. It reminds us we need God. Desperately. Completely.
My faith doesn’t just need to grow big, it needs to grow deep. Yes, I need deep faith roots.
So, I’m learning to not be so afraid of what might be around the next corner. Even if it does catch me off guard. I close my eyes and whisper… “deeper still.”
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